Family.
sometimes you gotta go thru it,in order to feel it. i feel like no one is proud of me. like no one cares bout me. like no one ever wanted me here in the first place. i felt so left out. i did nothing great in my lfe that anyone could be proud of. im just a burden. no one cares if i was trying my best to get the jod done. no one cares if im trying my fcking best just to make sure that someone,at least someone,is gonna be proud of me. im tired of people telling me that im still a kid. im tired of people treating me like one. im tired of people comparing me to others. im tired being the one that people look down at. i want to feel that someone loves me. i want to feel the love. i want to feel that someone's always there for me when people are comparing me to other. for once,i wanna feel that im not a stranger. i want people to accept me for they way i am. i want people to know that im trying my best to be a better person. i may not be the best daughter,friend,sister but i surely promise i'll try to be one. whenever people start comparing me to someone else. i'll feel this irritating feeling inside me. and most of the time i cant control my tears. haissh. no one understands me. or maybe,i dont even understand myself. im not good enough for anything. anyone. im disgusted of myself.momma i beg you please stop comparing me to abang. momma i am so dissapointed in you. and in myself too :'(
