another awesome soul

freakin blog in a mess.
where's my freakin link and stuff?
huh.
what!
i find this song really touching.
kindaa related,c:

cause when im with him im thinking of you
thinking of you
what you would do if you were the one who
was spending the night
i wish i was looking into your eyes

you're the best
and yes i do regret
how i could let myself
let you go
now the lesson's learnt
i touched it i was burnt
i think you should know

c:

sweet or what
hmmmpf.

it hurts to be in it.

25.4.09,2 minutes before midnight (!)
silent scream.
been busy lately.
had no time for blogs.
confused~
proving is bigger than just saying -.-
shiqyn vuckin can dance c:
you did great for the thingy babe,fyi.
kau je yg bersemangat!
serious.
haha.
mdc or np.
hmmmpf.
blank,i have no ideaa.
i reallyreally want mdc but np's fine to me too.
gahhh~
busyy~

been hearing about mdc from qyn.
woo~
envy-ness.
mdc's doing superb latelyy.
gold for syf.
great or whatt?
freakinn feelings.
envy like serious shit.
ohh maa gee~
how ehh.
-.-
dancing is so freakin fun.
grrr...
happy for iqyn tho.
c:

english & malay paper 2 just now.
fulerrmmmak~
scaryy.
den when blue sea with naq aliyah qyn amarr sharliza fika fid jueetaaaaa.[long listt!]
den saww nazatul haryanti faroookq musq.
den lepaklepak withh diorangg.
huge number of junyuan girls lepak-ing.
haha.
funn.
amarr dari start takot cause she scared police roundroundd.
ape saje ntahh.
kinda irritating ahh amarr.
kau ni kan.
-.-
talktalk chitchit chatchat chittychitty chatty den when to this 'dont know where' place.
farookkkkq lead the wayy.
haahaa.
tpi cool jgk that placee.
den took thousands of picture.
nazz!
i want those picturess too!
hmppp.
den talktalk,whateverwhatever.
den go back school.
blablablaaa.
den this freakin upper sec girl go stare at amarr.
amarr tros freak out and cry ketakotan.
wthh.
den frank uh ehh,i finf it irritating uhh marr.
tolong jng kamu ulangi lagi yaa.
cheeyywahh.
i guess everyone find it irritatingg uhh.
you dont need to shoutshoutt la sume tu kan.
haiyaaa,girlfriendkuuuu~
nk balek na balek.
like seriously,kau nk balek kau balek uhh.
btol tk btol,people?
-.-
whattheH.
tkpe la marr,let thh bygoneS be bygoneS.
cheyy amaciamm .
kalau kau piker dier nk kill kauu tell aku ehh.
hak~
put a *huh,itsjustastare* face.

and iqyn,hak pm!
weeweeeeweee~
aku sayang kamu jgk la iqyn.
melayu rocks ( ? ) haha.
and today was seriously hell a big dayy.
tiredd,people!
so longg.....

PICTURES UPLOADED !
BYEE!

freakin problems ~
ja sorry aite.
i was alone.
i dont know who to talk to.
i need someone to know my problem.
i just want someone to understand me.
i was in a mess.
my life is a mess.
i really need someone to hear me up.
thanks for being there ayee babe.
i really dont know what to do.
family's been kecoh lately.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

just now was fun uhh.
katekS turn out to be friendly-er den i thought uhh.
haha!
gilerr uh kamuS katekS.
nothing interestingg todayyy..
oh and yahh!
faiz,besok k besok.
nk bet pe,i'll cubet you!
hmmmpf.
* tunjok action face *

1. if you could change your name, what would it be?i don't know... but seriously,eton/zainab/petom never in the list ^.^
2. do you think you are good looking? QUESTION MARK
3. are you single or taken? single,like duu-uhh.
4. are you happily single or taken?do i even have to answer this???
5. what's your favourite colour?red,blue,green!
6. do you think the round is round or flat?(???) question mark for this!
7. spongebob or patrick?spongebob~
8. chuckie or tommy?tommy~what are they , in the first place. haha!
9. pooh, eeyore, baby pooh?eeeee, hate all of them...
10. who are your best friends?bloody truckloads of lists.
11. who is your enemy? no,i guess. livin life HAPPILY.
12. who was the person you saw?ibu,who argue-ed with me cause of comp XD
13. who was the last person you hugged?iqyn,dont know y.
14. who was the last person you told you love them?errr,dont know.
15. who is the person you miss most?jaja,hudd,kerentengS,izzudin!,irfan itam! [all of a sudden]
16. what is one thing that brightens up your day? jaja's stupid old face,haha!
17. when was the last time you went on vacation?november. cameron highland trip. miss those days with the p6 batch...
18. who was the last person to annoy you?dont know.sufi i guess.haha.
19. againest for gay marriage?eeeew??
20. bush or kerry?don't know them HAHA :D
21. againest for abortion?NO! D: ALERT,student! crappss?
22. when was the last time you cried?monday.
23. when was the last time you were absolutely happy?just now,today!
24. who was the last person you yelled at?don't quite sure.
25. do you think you are well liked? i dont know but i hope so~
26. do you want to go to talawanda?whatthehell and wherethehell is...TALAWANDA??
27. tag 7 people to do this quiz
jaja
iqyn
jurahh
aliyah
naq
whoever
whoever

freakin you hudd.
im clever,i did copied and paste !
haha.

eventho i've been cracking out shits every now and then.
doesnt mean you can treat me like how you treat me -.-
ask yourself.
i maybe crazy dotdotdot super irritating but please never say that to me.
yeaa...
like as if you dont mean it.
come on la brother.
just because she's someone special to you doesnt make her
perfect in everyone's eye.
am i right or what.
sis,mean-less,just words.
but seriously,i've been faking and been putting shit on my face.
i dont usually smile when i dont want to.
cause i knoww she means a world to you.
and i respect that.
so do respect me aite.
telling you actually~
people[ you know who you are ] .
come on la,im just as crazy as you guys.
so dont put all the blame on me.
arent you crazy too?
in a way.
just because she got upset andd shut up and still a question mark.
doesnt makes me the guilty one's who make her upset rightt?
itss 2009 sister,2009!
wake up la.
you know i dont mean a bloody damn thing i've said.
and i've try-ed talking and make myself lookss foolish infront of you guys,
but still you guys shut up!
huhhh..?
anyone,tell me what actually happen-ed/happening?
okeyy la dotdotdot.
but whats freakin me out MORE is that freakin feelings.
crap~
its all coming back.
i think im falling for him again after all those bullshit last year.
haha.
are we meant to be orr what?
haha.
wthelll.
k fullstop.
~love hurtsss~
and qyn,i know i know that *love hurtttsss* song really exist.
serious!!
haha.

so long worldd.

heyyhoo pee-pols.
been busy lately.
miss-ed crosscountry!
wtfoooocccckk!
really looking forward for that day.
but in the end woke up late for it.
ohh,gerek orr what!
grrrr~
stupid me.
just now was alright.
as alwayss.
nothing extra ordinary.
but i realise everyone's changing.
gone thru ups and downs.
jaja,thank you dear.
you've always been there when im down.[qyn,you too!]
really appr it.
~more than just words~
i freakin miss you ja.
kinda pissed.
crap oii.
it feels like you're dragging us in it too.
weirdd~
but whatever.
everyone's seem to change.
what up with you guyss?
or its me thats changing.
seriously confused.
someone tell me!
*i need ears to turn to*
lie to me like you always did.
tell me its all gonna be alright just
like before.
like you've said,lie like there's never
tomorrow.
freakin prangai.
youu....
those freakin prangai never fade away.
*laughwhilecrying*
bad memories~

takecare aitee people!

ginyrc si ym reverof emag~

like yeahh,i admit.
i felt DIKETEPIKAN.
like seriously.
i'll be always in the wrong at 'you guy's' eye.
if emy,he's just too perfect uhh.
right!!!!
fcuk oii .
it aint fairr.
i have feelings too.
well,if im one of you children too MOTHER......-.0
and yea,thats y im closer with my friends than you guys.
you never pay-ed attention to me.
i dont feel that love,fams.
well,come on.
i need it okeyy.
i need attention.
i'll be comparing myself with other children.
and at least they feel those love.
im closer to my friends , cause you guys just dont seems
to care,pay attention,listen and to even clap for what i've done great but
to look down,*BOOS* [in a way] if i made mistake.
and without even an encouranging words or whatever stuff that normally
family or even parents gave to their childrens.
it hurts!
like bloody hell hurting uh.
i try-ed controling myself.
but you guys just aint that suporting.
you guys didnt make me feel comfortable.
want me to not be like this,
by comparing me with cousinS , friends childrenS , other human beings!
ohh thats a super great way uhh!
-.-
it hurts ah it hurts.
just for awhile.
can you guys just stop comparing,looking down on me,scold me.
pleaseee!!!!!!!!!!

: (

aliyah's crib.

rockin chicks

rockin chicks!

retarded moments.

new pretty friends.

iqyn's nice house~

ayyy people!
currently at iqyn's house.
using his bro's lappyy.
superr duperr cool ahh~
and guess whhat.
her family owns 3 lappys.
great orr what!
shitt oiii.
ENVY-NESS~
meet up with naq and aliyahh,right after
goingg blue sea.
at tamp kfc.
hahha!
spoiled brats!
haha.
eat laugh andd farted ALOTT.
haha.
basicly jjjust me.
haha.
shhhh~
den naq , qyn and aliyah.
laugh their ass out after i crack thousands of silly jokes.
hahahhahahha~
roundroundd the world.
tampines 1 actually.
hak~
denn guess what.
naq wanted to go 'times' , wanna see books. [ like du-uh! ]
den she entered the wrong shop.
and i try-ed to hint to her , that we enter this kindaa shopp with cdS in it.
but she didnt get what i said.
haha.
minutes later,she said.
eh this aint times!
haha.
whatthehell.
slow siaa this girl.
k den blablablaa.
den went to times,finallyy.
den her mom calledd.
den muust go homee.
den had hard time deciding if i wanna follow orr not.
since iqyn ask to.
den here i am.
kk la,be uploading pictures soon.
so longg.

ayy ayy!
and again,crap.
didnt serve RR.
haiiyyoo!
went pa-ra-ta pa-ray-day-say.[jaja,hak!]
cause iqyn and aliyah wanna eat thosai.
and guess what.
all of the sudden in math class , if im not wrong.
iqynn asked me, ' miraa aku nk mkn thosai ahh.
nnti after school we go parata shop ehh . '
den i was like,huh?!
meng-edam or what sia this girl.
hahaaa.
den go there.
saw naz,haryanti,farah,sufi,iskandar.
farah aku ingat!
next wednesday ehh!
farah promise-d me she'll go RR with me next week.
haha.
jng step lupe only ehh.
and suddenly,nazatul say.
eh sidekni bobal cam minah sia.
*dropjawandfreeze*
i really cant believe what she said.
hmmpfff.
kinda piss for a while.
but whatever.
naz,like that ehh kau compare minah and not minah.
well,i guess you should change your way uhh.
cause tk semestinye org ckp like that means they're minahh.
soo yaaa...
dont judge a book by its cover~
-.-
tk marah cume tersinggong.
hak,tapi tkpe.
da biase.....
i miss khadijah,hudd,twins badly.
and oh ya,wrote about bestfriend in that exam just now.
and guess what ja,i wrote about youu.
good thing tho.
'soreal' dance crew is SUPERB laa.
fulerrmakk.

today was ordinary.
nothing suprising.
currently chatting with iqynn.
while she's dancing.
hak!
yup,dancingg.
she dance like no one bussi.
haha.
webcaming with her.
hakkk!
kakimu angkat lagi tinggi ya kamu ashiqyn.
faham tidak.
wekkwekk~
saw fad faction's 5th anniversary vid at youtube.
cool orr what.
hmm.
mdc syf just now.
a little too late uhh but nemind.
goodluck aite moderndancersss.
~busy~

eh people!
am i right orr whatt.
it aint about how you look,its about your attitude.
so what if you said im uglyy.
well,i am.
so?
any problem.
and oh ya,you're pretty~
like i freakin care laaa.
well,whatever.
at least i dont go around and flirt.
you're pretty,and just because of your pretty-ness
you can bloody insult people whenever you like.
flirt like 'he' wants you freakin everytime.
come on girl.
bring it low.
dont use your power to insult someone's weakness!
hey,thats aint mature okeyy.
well..
someday he'll know the real you.
learn sister learn.
pretty-ness,cute-ness,hot-ness,handsome-ness,chubby-ness dotdotdot
aint everything~
people like cause they love.
people love cause they like.
people care cause they love.
people love cause they care.
and dotdotdot.
people dont love just because you have nice hair.
people dont love just because you're pretty.
people dont love cause they're forced.
people dont love cause they're despo.
people dont love cause you smell's good.
people dont love cause you're perfect.
[ besides no one's perfect ~ ]

so wake up.
im begging you,just for a bloody one second
shut up and mind your own bussiiiii.
so what if i aint pretty.
mind you?~

pissed~

hey pee-pol ~
been quite moody lately.
dont know why tho.
got leadership workshop after
a freaking boring dayy ahh.
like,seriously~
and yeaa,learnt stuff.
end at 5 + and addition 6 min.
crap.
just because we're late after the break.
den blablablaaa...
meet amar,naq and aliyah.
+ their super angry faces.
hak.
amar,shouted.
ehh pompanS,cepat la!
lambatnye.
haha,me and qyn freak out and hurry-ly run to them.
hakk~
oii mar,firece ehh!
den liyah,mar and me follow naq go top up her whatever.
den sufi,haziman/hazaman/hazamin,izkandar,alinda or whoever and
iqyn had a hard time decided if they're following.
whathehell.
haha.
after all that debuting , FINALLY they decided to follow.
hahahahhaha!
den yadayadayadaa..
and guess what,after that when home.
wtFCUK!
boringg sia.
haha.
viewing those dance crew workin their thannng off.
so , so long suckers.

ya...
blablabla..
yesterday was okeyy..
took pictureSS but its not share-ed.
soo ya.
well,good picture quality-ed phone.
plus preeeeetttyy.
yeahh,common.
useless.
currently pissed~
whathefcuk.
it aint about anyone or even anything.
ask yourself prettyhead.
even if you're preettttyy cant you just share or even
send some of it.
well whatever.
had enough~

true colours aint that colourful tho.

-.-

thinking back
to the feelings i had
when i first saw your face
i knew that it was you
times has passed
and the feelings i had before still are the same

even though i dont show it
i just want you to know
that even if we fight a million times over little things
we will still make it better
i meant what i said

i've been searching my whole life
im lucky i found you
now that i got you,you aint gonna leave
cause forever aint enough

you see me for who i am
and for who im not
im telling you that im sorry
if i tend to treat you the wrong way
but you know i care
you know my heart is there

;

those imperfections that makes you perfect
i aint gonna make it if living is without you

my own mom seems to dislike me!
how great is that ?!~

heyhoo.
yesterday was blooding tiring ah.
like seriously.
area's game day.
fuweeehhh~
serious shit,changkat girl's is huge.
haha.
in a way,tall.
like veryyveryy tall.
hmmmpf~
den blablabla...
we lose , crap.
but whatever.
we gave our best tho.
den siokfong start crying.
passing the virus.
all cried.
like what the fcuk.
hak!
den,guys got to go the second level.
fulerrmak.
we cheer-ed for them.
and again,fulerrmak~
they're great.
got to the last level.
for the 3rd and 4th place.
its obvious, they did their veryy best.
they lose , but well whatever.
derick cried.
and its alright,it shows that we took that thingy seriously.
cheer up derick.
c:
we try-ed our best.
fcuk oii!
i forgot my password for that thingy.
crap oii!
grrrr~
*crackheadandthink*

~.~

TITLE :
dont you think im irritated by love?

yes like seriously.
no im not joking.
thats how sick you feel when
people all around you talk about love huh.
*rolleyes*
turn right ,
love
turn left ,
love
turn behind ,
love
stay still ,
love
what the hell what the hell.
live in life la people.
thats bullshit
fantasies sucks at time.
in this case it always sucks.
so stop talking to me about love.
irritated easily.
get irritated ,
ignore you ,
and i will shut up.
k people.
just stop talking about love for a bloody damn 5 min.
set ?
you dont need to brag around if you like that
HUMAN right.
i'll talk to you like no one's bussi
and if only you talk LESS about love.
deal , people ?

stop talking about bloody damn love
for just a second,how bout that ( !? )

*rolleye*
*rolleye*
i dont give a damn!

heyhey.
yesterday was stupid.
more to i was stupid.
hak!
normally fridayss have np.
den like i went home with iqyn accompany-ing me.
change to my P.T kit den go kedai mama,the minimart.
den oh ya!
the music thats been played at that shop made us
wanna dance.
haha!
i said " lagu ni buat aku nk joget only sia " c :
den iqyn start laughing silent-ly like hell.
hahaha!
gilaa punya orang.
den i ask iqyn
if she can buy for me anything.
den guess what.
she reply, no .
hahaha!
den i was like okeyokeyy fine.
she laugh silent-ly again.
what the hell right.
den straight go to school.
helga saw me wearing P.T kit , and she said.
today dont have NP la sioww.
i was like what the hell.
haK!
okeyy paiseyy.
den talktalk with nazatul,yanti and farah all.
walau!
we laugh like no ones bussi.
talktalktalk for awhile den they all have to fall in.
shiiii attt !
den boring.
i decided to went home.
haha.
like idiotic sia we all .
den iqyn also said she wanna follow.
den went home played computerr and stuff.
and guess what.
[ you know who ] msg iqyn ask her to support the rugby's.
WTH.
i was like we're going back to school ?
hak!
paiseyy siaa.
the guard dont know how many times saw us going in and out
of the school men.
nemind.
as a good friend. [ cheyy , what the crap ]
i accompanied iqyn as she told me to.
den watchwatchwatch .
den home sweet home.
[ you know who ] cant go home with iqyn cause he need to wait.
wth.
den yaa....went home.
and today nothing much.
everybody's still in their wonderlands.
im the only one who's awake.
borinngggg!

long post huh c :
more to go.
posting again later.

so long,
suckers

heyho people of the worlllddd.
had a fun time after school.
well,like always.
iqyn,ahhma,bren and aliyah.
hak!
had a freaking great time laughing our
ass out to all those silly things we made.
what the crappy hell.
i make a fool out of myself;
but well.
whatever,who cares.
its just me.
yeaa..
waited at school just to go to the RR.
hell piece of shit.
thought that reporting late to RR wont make a thing.
hak!
but guess what.
when around 4.30 i went up to RR.
den the bloody uncle said,well you must at least be here by 2.
i was freaking 'what the hell' .
den i told him i'll rather report 2morrow den.
gappsgapss!
what a waste of time.
ya den blablablaa.
told iqyn what happened.
den she was . 'okey what the hell '
while freaking think about having to report to RR again 2morrow.
make me go crazy.
while them[you know who] trying to so called settle that
freaking childish small matter.
well .
not that im trying to open it up back,
but well.
come on,WE dont think you're reacting to it in a mature way.
just because of that.
gang fight.
okeyy what the hell.
qyn you should know,hak! [ roll eyes ]
me qyn , we're like .
so the ignoring [ you know who ] .
she's to much.
well whatever.
eh people get a life.
grow up.
after that so called case close-ed.
qyn,nazatul,haryanti,musq,naq,aliyah,ahhma,me and blablabla.
went to blue sea.
[ qyn , blue sea kan !? hak! ]
den borrowed iqyn's money.
thanks horr thanks.
den lepak with them at the usual place.
haha.
laugh like no one's bussi.
and i find musq , loud .
like super loud.
and craps all the time.
hahahahaha!
fun tho.
den off we go.
went home.
shit,they went home taking bas.
i sadly need to walk due to not having enough money.
gapps~
compo or what.
haha!
k la,tired.
be posting again.

so long ,
suckers.