but its almost enough to know its one way love :/
bellamy
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
never good enough.wah siak. one thing after another eh. i never stop liking him until you came along. you make me lost all my words when i have to talk to you. you make me trip on flat surface when i saw you from far. you really make me a different person. you make me impressed just by doing what you do best. its the way you look me in my eyes. you make me feel so right. everything bout you make me go crazy. but now when i started to have that feelings for you,i got to know that you crush on someone else. i thought this time round things will get better. but we just cant assume things,can we. they can never turn out to be what we wanted them to. if i were to come early that day,none of this would ever happened. but its just me to blame. im just a shame of myself. i dont know what im suppose to do. i dont want you to know. but i somehow want you to know. that smile you put up when you're talking bout her made my day. its like you've never been this happy,knowing a girl. and i dont want to ruin it. you seems so sincere. your smile's like my air. what hurts most is when someone you have feelings for talk to you bout that someone they have feelings for. and if you're in that situation you dont know what you're suppose to do next. i dont know what i m suppose to do. am i suppose to cry,tell him what i really feel towards him,smile or encourage him to crush on her more. its like you dont wanna ruin their smile by saying you like him when he's talking bout that lucky someone. but when you keep it all inside,it really is painful. i wont stop,maybe one day you'll figured out what i was feeling all this while. i really hope so. unexplainable feelings inside this tiny thing,heart. its hard to accept. argh,im just a let down.
Labels: ive always wish i was in her place
Monday, September 20, 2010
im too tired of people walking all over me. i gave you the respect you needed but you really cant see it do you. i treat you like you're everything to me but i finally realise you really could care less bout whats happening between us. partially my fault for trusting someone like you. you dont take us seriously. when was the last time you did something for the first time. you ditch me,for all time. you didnt call me when you promised you would. you didnt change when you seriously swear you would. you didnt do all this for the first time,you did this all the bloody time. i get so fucked up with your attitude. i was fooled from the start,and i gave my heart. cause i believe we'll work. but now that things starting to fall apart. i really should move on. i know ive been saying this a thousand time but now its foreal. i dont want to be step on anymore. i gave you face all this while. i cant take it any longer. i need someone to appriate me,i really do. please dont hurt me anymore :/Thursday, September 16, 2010
Raye. Happening rabaknye.
there's something i gotta say to you. but im afraid of what you'll do. i'll admit this to you now. that im stuck on you like glue somehow. issh,i cant believe i fall for you. Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Family.
sometimes you gotta go thru it,in order to feel it. i feel like no one is proud of me. like no one cares bout me. like no one ever wanted me here in the first place. i felt so left out. i did nothing great in my lfe that anyone could be proud of. im just a burden. no one cares if i was trying my best to get the jod done. no one cares if im trying my fcking best just to make sure that someone,at least someone,is gonna be proud of me. im tired of people telling me that im still a kid. im tired of people treating me like one. im tired of people comparing me to others. im tired being the one that people look down at. i want to feel that someone loves me. i want to feel the love. i want to feel that someone's always there for me when people are comparing me to other. for once,i wanna feel that im not a stranger. i want people to accept me for they way i am. i want people to know that im trying my best to be a better person. i may not be the best daughter,friend,sister but i surely promise i'll try to be one. whenever people start comparing me to someone else. i'll feel this irritating feeling inside me. and most of the time i cant control my tears. haissh. no one understands me. or maybe,i dont even understand myself. im not good enough for anything. anyone. im disgusted of myself.momma i beg you please stop comparing me to abang. momma i am so dissapointed in you. and in myself too :'(
Monday, September 6, 2010
ive been holding on for too long i guess. sometimes you just gotta accept the fact that not everything can be fix. and sometimes things just dont go your way. and thats the time when you gotta stand up for yourself and go thru life like it meant to be. and thats when you open your eyes to things that are more important in life.all the best,iqyn. for me and for you too girl. i cant take it any longer. like he doesnt even give a damn. so why should i. right. im just gonna be another promise he cant keep. i hope i can go thru all this. and i hope you can too.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
