im so pissed off right now. im angry at myself. i never wanted to be such a let down. im sorry i am. i dont know why i just dont do things right. lately,ive been such an idiot. everything's just not in place. everything's in a huge mess. for once i want to do something right that someone will be proud of. i wonder how hard it is for a parent to raise a child like me. i dont know. i just dont feel like im worth it :/ and i want to be a good friend. i suck. i need air. :''(