empty promises.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
dont you talk bout shame to me. you dont know what it is. dont you fucking bring 'shame' up to me. you think im gonna buy all your shits now. not any more you fcking sucker.
thought you're gonna stay out of my life. but no,you're still gonna ruin my
life huh. no-life-son-of-a-bitch. i dont fcking insult your mother,
you better dont start insulting mine.
ok byye now longlost friend.
remember i love you.
your mother's pussy.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
my nose is so fcking irritating. like water tap. i keep on sneezing. in 1min,88 times. how awesome is that huh!? cb. today ndp rehersal,i 'sedia' with a packet of tissue in my hand. how cool. not. larva in my eyes. my eyes getting hotter inside. what is all this? please say im not getting sick anytime soon. ok,i have alot of undone stuffs to do. been very busy in school plus after school. so i wont be updating this piece of shit(blog) everyday. i wanna try stay away from this monster,computer. i need a break. computer just remind me of everything. so i really really need a break from all this. so byyyyyyyye. much love. peace? :B
Monday, July 26, 2010
i miss you girl. jueta i hope you're feeling better already :B 
you said we could work it out,how could you hurt me now. sumpah im missing you badly now. you dont know how much i wanna feel you. you may not care but i do. and i wont forget the way you loved me. ive been wondering why,why cant we be just like any other happy people. ive been wondering what the hell do i want. and i think ive got the answer,i wanna feel your touch. i wanna feel you. you're all i needed. i miss you. i miss how your lips reaches my cheek. why let me walk alone :/Sunday, July 25, 2010
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥Fazirah menghargai pengorbanan yang ayah lakukan untuk orang♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥Saturday, July 24, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
yes its my second post of the day. ive got alot,alot,to say. so bear with me for a moment aite. i feel like killing myself. im such a pain in the ass. i dont know why but im starting to like him even more. i know its wrong. (isit?) but you dont seem to care,at all. i love you yes i do but i cant help it. please come back. take me with you. so i wont fall for him deeper. and if i wont fall for him,that means i wont betray you. i dont want to betray you. i dont wanna dissapoint you. i miss you. i dont wanna leave you. but im starting to have that feelings for him. come back. its all my fault. i dont want to hurt you despite how much you've hurt me. i know you didnt mean to (i hope so) argggh. what am i up to now. i cant be liking someone else when im still with you,can i. i swear,its gonna be easier when you're here with me. i need you. i dont want you to act all strangerly infront of me. i want you. the one,who never ignores. the one who cares. please know that whatever happens to us,i will always love you. you will always be my number one. people see me as that cheerful-full of nonsence girl. seems happy everytime. but no one knows,how i suffered. how much pain ive been facing. ive been searching for answers. i wanna know who am i to you. what are we. whats all this. if you're just fooling with my feelings,for the 1000000001th times. if you think i am one kind of a loser. if all this means nothing to you. if you know,that i truthfully love you with all my heart. and if your attitude would change when you know all of this/when you know how precious you are in my life. would it change how you treat me,boy. i'll always be right beside you,even if you doesnt know it at all.
so today was Racial Harmony alright. and it was so fun,i swear\m/ see those cool happening students up there. we wore our bajus. including awesome aidil :B in class,all the malays wore their costumes. it just shows how happening we are,right. yup. hehe. aidil change after recess,i think. and everyone looks so good. good looking,cool people. hehehe. ok da byyyye.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
tmrw's Racial Harmony crap. as everyone in the school's talking about. i do not,i swear,i do not know what to wear. haisssh. loser la you amira. still cosidering actually. but i think im bringing it but not sure if im wearing it to school. hehe. i'll be such a noob wearing costumes walking to school. and not to mention,my house is only 2 blocks away from main gate. HEHEHE. but still i dont wanna look like some idiot. ok enough. i didnt know,my guy was so good in rugby. wooo. :B you rock,{insertname} . HEHE. you asked me why i havent talk to you for so long. maybe its because you're slowly pushing me out of your life. -.- i miss the way you used to stare at me. eventho i thought it was creepy but at least it was you. now its all diff,you're not you. you're not the guy i used to know so well before. i just wanted you. the real you. the old you. the new one suck,i swear :\ ok,now. imma go iron my costumes,hehe. k byyyyyyyyyyee.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
its 1 in the morning *sleepy face* . just finished doing the ridiculous ass cube(thanks to both of us,iqyn -.- lol),ironing my school unif,wash face,dig butt :p. now i wanna read my book and if i cannot take it anymore then i'll sleep. and tmrw having 2.4 argh great. byyyyyyyye.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
ive come to realise that whenever you hate somebody because there's reasons to it,you guys still have hope. but when you hate that somebody because you just simply hate 'em. and that is when there's no more hope to improve anything in the f.ship/r.ship. like seriously. i hate you,i dont seem to get the answer to why i do. i just you know,hate you thats all. weird feelings huh.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Life.
i know i just posted something just now. cant resist the temptation of writing in again. ive always wanted things to go my way. ive always had dreams to live a happy flawless life. now that im older i realise all that was bullshit. tell me who in this world gets whatever they want whenever they want. tell me now. ive come to realise that life isnt that easy too. but i will survive :B ive learnt that money wont come that easy. and we need to earn it to survive. i know money doesnt pay for everything. yes undenialable true. but i also notice that without money you're as good as dead. i know ive always waste money just like that(snap),now i realise i used to be such a bitch for doing that. now that im no longer like before,i felt so guilty. and i always remind myself think of others before you. what they had back then? how they struggle to avoid stavation. how my parents sacrifies just to feed me/us. it never once cross my mind,i used to be such a heartless creature. wasting money that was given by my daddy not forgeting my momma. they work day and night just for that. but now alhamdullilah,i can appr them even more. its been a rocky journey,oh yes it has been. and they're there whenever i need 'em. and words cant explain how much i love 'em. despite whatever happened. i wouldnt make it without 'em. i love 'em and they're the best thing that ever happened to me. and now i realise im being just a noob. why so random Amira.J haha. (i guess,i just had to tell everyone how precious they are to me :B) life is so not easy-Wednesday, July 14, 2010
i did,fight for this love. Alhamdullilah,things getting better now. and god's willing,it will stay this way thru out the year. i hope so eh. take me as i am. you know ive been holding on,did you. life is full of unpredictable things. this is for you Farhan Aditra. things will get better. despite how long it'll takes. you just gotta believe in it and most importantly you gotta believe in yourself. dont say you cant take it anymore. think twice,you've hang on it since forever. kan? dont stop now bro. life aint easy. so true. but that doesnt mean giving up is one of the solutions. giving up is NO solution. one day,sooner or later. she'll understand you. i bet she will. give her more time to consider it. Monday, July 12, 2010
some day,i cant remember whether im really still in love with you or if i just miss you out of habit. cause im too used to lies. fake surroundings. betrayal. im used to your fake 'i love you',and now i dont know how to differentiate whats true and whats plain bullshit anymore.i dont wanna force you in anything. do whats best for you. if you're happy,so am i. i dont want you to pretend,anymore. im not holding you back. i just want you to know that im gonna be here thru thick and thin,i promise.
in this very long emotional-confuse journey in life-
i love you,i just dont want to get fooled anymore.
im too scared to love anymore.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
OMG.
he's so fcking talented la. dont you think so,friends? tehee.
ive been watching his vids all this while.
ive watched all of his vids. (i dont wish to go obssesed over anything.)
he have that thaang inside him that made him so fcking cool.
i do not know why the hell am i posting bout this but its ok. i have to tell someone
how good he is. lol. i like cool guys\m/ ok byyyye,will post again later on.
he's so fcking talented la. dont you think so,friends? tehee.
ive been watching his vids all this while.
ive watched all of his vids. (i dont wish to go obssesed over anything.)
he have that thaang inside him that made him so fcking cool.
i do not know why the hell am i posting bout this but its ok. i have to tell someone
how good he is. lol. i like cool guys\m/ ok byyyye,will post again later on.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
i could really really really use wish-es right now. tehee. i want this m.fcking stomach ache to go away. ok thats number 1. number 2,i want to start studying. i dont know why,but i think im still in the holiday's mood. number 3,i want people espeacially you to realise how much ive been missing you. pain in the ass much-.- haissh. number 4,i wanna ace my subjs. provided i start studying now la right. ok set(cheey,no promises ah) . number 5,i wanna be someone you'll turn to and smile saying,"im proud of you." . number 6,i wanna know what love is. yes ive been thru this but till now ive yet to get any serious answer to what the fuck is love. number 7,i wanna feel alive again. number 8,i wanna love you. number 9,i wanna hold your hands,look deeply in your eyes and feel the connection. if there's ever a connection between us .- pfft. lastly,i wanna be happy. i want you to know,parents. that i love you guys so much. more than anything that ever happened to me. ive been sleeping late lately. now its 12.15 in the morning. i should get in bed now. byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyye. Labels: life
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
tears are words that heart cant say?ive always believe that this thing we had would last. i swear. and im hoping im right this time round. time hasnt moved. we have yet to go anywhere,too. we're still here stuck in a situation full of questions. despite the situation we're in,i fall deeper with each passing day. but try to hide it in every possible way. you're the one person i could never let go of. in your eyes,maybe its a little too soon to say that but ive been here,waiting since forever. there comes a point when i feel like giving up. but i'll think twice before i do that cause i believe we can go far. you think so? its 1.20 in the morning,and im still ironing my Npcc Uniform. haissh. tomorro going live shooting. awesome much. i dont think im sleeping any time soon. im still alive but im bearly breathing. i wanted to say so much but you wont let me. as much as how you feel annoyed bout all this, thats how much i miss you. i wanted something real. whats this?
Sunday, July 4, 2010
ystrday bro's birthday. today momma's birthday. momma treat kiter Seoul Garden ystrday. so the nice nice. Happy Happy Bithday You Guys ♥ big bro bought him GShock. all black. nice la cb -.- Kak Syafiqah bought him GShock also. red. haisssh,beli the beli the jealous ah. big bro bought braclet for momma. i want presents for my big day too alright guys. hehehe. err im blank,so i'll type in again later aite. lol. ok byyyyyyyyyyye.
Friday, July 2, 2010
FCUK. i wanna run,yea sure. but i cant hide. can i? well,life isnt going too well for me right now. it breaks us into pieces to have to witness someone very precious in our lifes,suferring. you think so. cause i definately agree. you see me smile but all the way im torn up. its too hard for me to handle. please. no more :'( im scared of everything now. im scared of losing you,dad. you dont know how terrified i am. you are strong,and i know you can manage this ' little up hill ' in life. i'll always be here. whenever you need me. i promise,i'll always stay by your side. " if what is ahead scares you,and whats is behind hurts you,just look up. he never fail to help me. and im pretty sure he wont let you down too. " i miss you already. i love you,always have,always will.