i need this space,just like you need it.
i cant wait to hate you.
but why.
why is it so hard to let go.
for a minute there i lost myself.
i dont know what to do.
blank.
i wish i could press reset.
doesnt mean there arent days when
it all just come rushing back.
i cant wait to hate you,
cause right now i need you so bad.
and i just keep having one last thing to say.
i just dont know how to spit it all out.
and i just wanna hold you,touch you.
but i also feel like killing you.
why is this so hard.
everything is so hard.
i never wanted this.
i never asked for this.
but why i have to face it.
i thought we had something special.
you gave me false hope.
maybe its just me.
maybe its just that i hope too much.
but i really felt that feeling inside.
whats all this.
is that 'feelings'.
but why do 'feelings' lie.
'feelings' dont lie.
i gotta take a lilttle time.
time to think it all over.
love's killing me.
i dont know if i can face it again.
i laugh to keep myself from crying,like almost all the time.
you came to me like a dream.
dream's fairytales?
you're fairytales too then.
there comes a point where i just have to
stop trying because it hurts too much to pretend anymore.
ive been faking it all this while.
i know ive convince people that well.. all this is a piece of shit.
but no i lied.
im still working vking hard to let go.
help me please.
i can hear you when you whisper.
but you cant even hear me screaming.
you mean so much to me.
im currently in this long and confusing process
of figuring out who i am and what
i want to do in my life.
to still care bout someone,
who never cared for you.
that is the most foolish thing.
but what can i do.
i hate you,and then i love you.
its like i wanna throw you off a cliff and rush
to the bottom to catch you.
argh,cb.
i am tired of everything.
