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Friday, January 29, 2010

I didnt realise i said that.From deep down in my heart.I cried yesterday night right after i tell you what i didnt intend to.I mean you dont need to know when i say im always here,here for you.I cried thinking how silly am i to tell you that when maybe you dont even care,right.But i was also thinking that was indeed a brave side of me to let it out.That was the first time i reveal what i really want to long ago.

Labels: life would be perfect if

School was ok.Friends,they're fine.Npcc fuckdamn tough.I dont know,i think we all changed.

Ok so thats it.I didnt know a thing until like 30 mins ago.I promise you this,no matter what's gonna happen,despite what already happened you'll always see me right behind you.I'll go in even when the world's running out.No matter what you gotta know that im right behind you.I care bout you,even when you dont know.I will always keep you in my heart.Deep down im crying for you.You shouldnt face this,you're perfect no one should do that to you.To me.When i tell you i love you i dont say it out of habit or to make conversation.I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me.& when i first met you,i never would have imagined that i would have such strong feelings for you,i never thought that i would have dreams bout you or miss being by your side or get butterflies in my stomach when you mention my name.When i first met you i never would've thought that i would love you.I will always love you so go easy on yourself,:D.Really you see,if people dont see that in you dont worry cause i will always do.Cheer up and i promise you this too,i wont give up in making you smile and laugh again.Maybe you guy's done but there's still friends and people who cares bout you and want to see you move on.Here's a hand,to hold on to.Whenever,wherever just say my name and i'll be running up to you boy.It has been you all the way,since forever.I just want you happy again.Thats all,i dont ask for many.I got alot to say to you,if only i got the chance to.Remember,im here.Eclipse,for all time.

Labels: just look up in the sky and you'll find me i promise

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Weyheylo.Seriously i wasnt looking forward for today,bacause there's P.E.I hate it since Mdm Chew says that we're gonna run 2 rounds around school every lesson.I hate it cause now im fatter and i dont have that kind of stamina i used to have before.But know what,today's p.e is not bad afterall.Thanks to smallgirl iqyn.She pushed me all the way,i owe you one.School's alright uh,nothing really happened.After school sit down one corner with Dianah white,Iqyn,Win&Mir.Chat like about everything.Was rather moody later that time.Errm,i dont know how to explain on why im moody just now guys.So im sorry.Then since iqyn got something on,i accompany her for awhile.Ok not awhile uh actually,haha.Accompany her,sit in the canteen with the mdcs.They're arrogant-free,i tell you.Haa.Planed to study after iqyn do her thing.But then the 'thing' took up like,very long uh.Then we decided not to study after school just now.Grr,its alright smallgirl.Im still going to open my book at home ok! Haa! Around 5 plus i went home.Before that went to Cik Nordin's shop to buy Currypap.And i was short of 10 cent and that loveydovey uncle says its alright.Gave him one wide smile,lol.See the picture up there.Yes,i miss them.Random to the hell but really i miss you guys.Do you guys wanna study together someday,come on la you guys even if its not huge but im sure you guys miss me alilbit right.Nyahahahhaa.Ok i guess thats about it for today,peace.
Its because of you,i love you.Still.

Labels: No one belongs here more than you.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

I guess im happy today.

Labels: Cause i care so much bout you.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Dedicated to my ohsoclose friend,Farhan.Its not too late Aan.She'll understand,somehow.You gotta tell her that you love her or should i say you've been loving her all this while,while you got the chance to say.Gotta live like we're dying bro :D You dont wanna regret all your life not telling her what you really feel towards her.You dont wanna hide anymore bro.I know exactly how you feel,dont worry.We aint no robot,im scared too.It takes time.What matter is,if you try to or not.I know you too well Farhan.You got easily drown by all this.But dont give up on someone that you cant go one day without.I know you've always been there for her,always there behind her to support her in everything she does.For a long time,dont you want to unfold your dreams.Tell her what you gotta say and i bet she'll be absolutely shock.Cause you're not bad at all you see,you got looks,you're really a good guy and every girl craves you.Excluding me bro.Haha,hmm so dont worry.I bet she crushed on you too bro.No harm trying uh.And now im answering your question,there's no need to change anything.Anything in you.Be yourselve,be Farhan.Why bother changing anything when there's nothing to be change.Seriously.Ask her out and confess.Maybe it dont really sound that easy but you gotta try to know it right.You cant predict whats gonna happen my dear.Really its all up to you.Hmm,aku ni yeye-o je eh.Dont give up uh Aaan.

Labels: Life is divine chaos.Embrace it.

Hmm,hello.Today is one bright day.Still on MC,suck much.Nothing much happen,i am bored.So bored,too bored.Brother didnt go school today,due to i dont know what.Maybe because he needs a break? Maybe,but for sure he's not ill.Lazyass,N's around the corner but he still can play around.I didnt attend Math Test on Mon,yaa and i dont want to attend it at all.Arrgh,i am so scared of Math.I just go blank whenever Math-make-you-go-crazy test are around the corner.Dont you guys feel that way to?Am i an alien or whut.Currently listening to Kris Allen.He's a great singer,no doubt.I think i miss him,i dont know.Whenever i have to face him,or have to be up close with him,my heart beats 1000 beats in a second.What does that mean?Im not quite sure you see.I dont have the mood to post,this'll be a short one.Schools for tomorro.Ok im out.

Hello.Pain Pain!This thing suck,i can hear myself whenever i talk.I feel cold as if sun dont exist when people feel like they're on Mars.Head plays Metallica.I just cant take it .This thing right here is getting worst.I just took my medcine but nothing seems to work.I went Poly with Ayah just now,saw Farhan at Poly.Hahaa,recover soon alright Aan.Take your obat,takmu malas2 la bacen.Today is also Musq,my good friend's,Birthday.Once again Happy Birthday PrettyMusqiee.Thanks to those,im fine.I will recover soon,i hope.And i wont be able to go to school again tomorro.Arrrgh,that is so not cool.I mean there'll be for sure pile and pile of homeworks to do.Suck to the extreme.To muke tempe(Iqinggg.),even tho its not that long i still wish i was in school laughing with you.Aww,am i a great friend or whuuuutt! Lol.

I wanna be the girl he gives his hoodie to wear and cuddles up next to when its cold,he'll be the one who comes up behind me wraps his arms around my waist,catches me off guard and whispers you look beautiful.But will that ever happen?Ever? ♥

Friday, January 22, 2010

Form-Teacher/Science Teacher.

Teachers put up something for their Graduating P6s.

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Mrs Tey,the female tiger,Math Teacher.She teach good Math tho.

I dont know whats B04-01 too.Maybe 4th floor,1st classroom?

Last day of School.Lol to Jaja's random attitude.

Otw back to Spore.You guys change,alot.Lol.

Dinner at idk where.

Waterfall somewhere in Melaka,i think.

Up high,outside Cameron hotel.Cloud,awesomxt.

Breakfast at Cameron.

Cameron Apartment.

Dinner.

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If this could come again.Cameron

P6s Result Day or isit Grad Day.

Adam Khoo Workshop.

(P6s 08 Cameron Trip!)

Hello to the mello.I found all this in the 'old' album.Time flys.If time can turn around,this is where i want to be.Around my lovedones.I smile when i look at this pictures,old but precious.Hmm,ok i'll properupdate other time alright.And yes people,im sick.Eating,im out.

Happy To The Birthday man kawan.May all your wishes come true.Youre a good friend,hmm awkward.Kau putih,jealous..And ah aku sayang kau.

Live life to the fullest,Farah.

Ah,basicly Happy 15th Birthday Farah!

Hmm,awkward to the max :D

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Heello,ive cleared up the space where the keyboard suppose to be so for that brother changed the cables and everything.So im back on board people.Cant be more happy.Ok first of all i wanna thank,Semot(skinnyqynnie) for everything.She's a friend you wont want to lose.You're always there whenever i really need someone,you'll be the first one to notice it.You'll push me up when i almost gave up.You're just too precious.If its not because of you,i wouldnt be this strong.Thank you mot,not only for today but for the past i dont know how long you've always been behind me.
Huuuuchhuuuch mot.Today in school,nothing really happen.Well,ok there is actually.Now,i dislike p.e,not joking.Im fat already la come on.I dont have that stamina i used to have,he he.And she make me ran 3 rounds around the school after sprinting up the chairs to 2nd and 3rd level in school,awesomstmx.And not to forget we're going to do that for every p.e lesson.Oh great isnt it,gosh.After that reccess,thats when i felt like crying mot...Hehe.It was kind of a big deal to me and thank you.Terharu raaaaru man aku,qyn.After reccess had drama,and no doubt it is fun.Cooling for sure after 1hr of hell running.Ok thats about it for school.Back at home,used to be quite tough but know what its all fine now.Just to let you know mot,we won.That damn company lose to us.Judge says they're suppose to give it to my dad so now they're going to soon.Case close:D.Now i can sleep fearless.Alhamdullilah eh,now i can ayah smiling.Thats all im asking for.So things at home is getting better.I hope is it.Ok now,i miss huda.I really miss you,you know hudd.I miss chatting with you.Whenever i go online you dont.That suck.I miss Jaja too and Anni.We dont seems to click anymore eh.Hmm,new friends piled up eh you guys.I still miss korangnye kegilaan.Come back.
♥I can sit and tell myself im over you a million times a day but when im standing there next to you every word just fades away.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Heey,im back on internet for today only.I hope not.So everyone's sleeping so i decided to make a quick update.So hello,i miss internet.Random much.I miss going out with the usuals.And to Musq,im so sorry i know it suck.I cant view your blog,all thanks to parental block setting.I try my best to visit your blog whenever i go to my aunt's ok.And im so happy for you Musq,WJ!!!To Als,wee congrats.FDS here she comes.Hard time thinking ends already,eh Als eh.Miss Huda & Jaja.Argggh : [ Dad's starting his work soon,monday.Wish him all the best.We're gonna be here right behind you ayah.As you can see i am very superbly seriously so-not-joking-ly Happy.Cause my wish came true.Thanks god.I've made him smile.Well,not really but at least i know he's stress-free :D The Six Ws ; Work Will Win When Wishing WontAidil's Phrase Nice one right,i admire it.Going out,main layang2 with Mom's side.Fun time calling already!
♥ No matter how many times i tell myself,i need to get over you,i know i never will.

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You never know,what would happen.
Until its time.
You dont know that ive been here all this while dont you.
And guess what,im still here.Regardless of how you treat me.
It is painful,yes sure is.If thats what make you smile,i dont mind
having a hole in my heart.I cant live my life wishing you would see
me in the dark but i wont go away.I dont lie when i say things dont change.
Eclipse.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Eh heyy. Was at Fauzi's house,niece's birthday until Sharliza called me ask me to acompany her go cyber shop.Lol,was eating uh actually but i still went down cause i know i wont be able to use computer at home often like i used to.So wait for Sharliza and Nana under her block then straight to cyber shop.So now still doing random things,lol.And chatting with Aliyah.Aliyah take it easy alright.I know how you feel,trust me.I am still here beside you.You dont need a man,cheey.Okokk i think we're going back soon,like real soon.Ok la got to go.Byee,update properly soon.Im out.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Maybe you thought that im crazy,but im crying over you.
No one knows but this have not end yet.
It still does hurt but what can i do.
Nothing will change,will it?
Maybe its just a chapter in your life but in mine its the whole book.
I may not esixt in your world anymore but for me you still do.
Its hard to pretend to not care when you still fcuking care.
Im there looking at you dating another girl,but thats fine cause i just want you happy.
But it just hurt,hurt too much.
I dont care if i got hurt but what matter is you're happy and for that i will smile
even if im deeply cut.
Cause i care so much about you.
You're always in my mind.
Tell me you're happy and i'll be too.
I cant run from reality,can i.
So when it hurts,im no one i cant change anything but just to manage the pain.
Just to see you smile.
I still oooo you like i do one year ago.
And my feelings,it wont change.

Bad update,i know.But i just gotta say it.So im sorry,will update properly soon.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Heey im back.I wont be onlineing or updateing my blog often nowadays since bro change the computer cable link to tv's.That suck,i wont be able to play computer cause for sure ibu or whoever wanna watch tv.I miss surfing the net,i swear.Currently at Aunt's and that explain why im blogging right now.Alot of things happen this days,the bad things and even the good things,but unfortunately i cant share it with you readers.And yes Happy New Year friends.To Farah,Iqyn,Musq,Yanti,Aliyah,Hudd,Ja,Sharliza & Jueta.To you too Mr-in-my-leftboob-always.And did i miss out anyone.And to everyone ok.Its 2010 already but there's no ending to it.No for sure.Giving up is not my thing,so god help me in this please.For 2010,i wish i would be stronger in everyway.And may Allah turn my wish to reality.Its 2 days to school reopen,oh hell yeah.Weee!Ive been missing school all this while.I miss my classmates.Awww.I cant wait for monday.Days go fast,please.And at last ive bought my books and shoes.I wont be using new beg for school since there's the old one.But its still in good shape so i guess i just use it then,right.Cut cost right.And im missing Eclipse.Just got to know that Yanti's happily attached with this awesomestx guy.Im happy for you yantx.Last long,you guys.And for iqyn,you can do it.I know you,you dont give up.Its not easy,sure.But no harm trying to solve it right.Everything happens for a reason.And Elly[wuuu,just so you know i love your new nick name,Elly,weee:D],hang in there alright.You guys can go thru it.You know,you guys made to be together right.2009 has been quite a roller coaster ride for me but i enjoy each and every second of it.So i wish 2010 surprise me with more challenges.K im going home like in 5 more mins so i think thats about it.I think i wont be updating my blog like everyday but i try my best to use the computer la alright.Okok-go with ♥.