Monday, December 21, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Hello everyone.I am so happy today.Thank you God.You grand my wish.I saw him just now.Silent scream,even tho i saw him while i was in the bas.But im still thankful,cause i miss him alot(too missing him,dont know what word to use.Hehee.).In the bas otw home saw him with one guy,his friend la hor.I saw him from far,i stare at him.Lol.How i wish i was out there with him.Then he turn,i dont know if he saw me looking at him.He turn,i turn away.I dont really know wether he's looking right back at me or he's just looking at someone else in the bas.I wasnt the only one in the bas,so better dont be so sure.Hahaa.The moment i saw him,my eye caught up with tears.Weird much?I know,i asked myself why do you have to cry.And i realise that im not answering to myself.What does that mean people?Confused.I miss him,arrrggh.It hurts to see someone you care alot about walk pass your eye and just cant stop them.I cant control myself.Whenever you're near,my heart,it beats fast.And my tummy felt like exploding.Anyone can explain why i felt that way when that particular someone is near.I miss you too much that no one,no one at all will ever get to describe.I know,now its impossible.But its alright,i'll wait.Take my words.I just feel right when i'm near you. I'll wait for that one big dayPlease,bukakkanla pintu hatinya untukku.Aku tetap akan menanti,walau brape lamepon.Amin Eclipse..
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Heey,saw that thingy up there.Its Vanshighcut,and it awesomexzt.I want them la,from long ago.Since forever man.Can i have that god.K so i went out with my girls on Tues.Cause i wanted to cut my fringe,so Hudd and Jaja company me.They're the best,wee.Meet them at SmallMac at around 2,i think.I datang on time kan ja?Lol.Then based to Afgan,walk one big round since the salon that i wanted to cut at is kindof full.So we servey other salon,but end up cutting at the salon that we wanted to at the very beginning.So my fringe is short and unglam but who cares cause to me its better than before,lol.Then went to Afgan Mac which is right opp the salon.So i eat MacChicken,the usual.Hudd bought Mac Flurry and Ja bought Fillet O Fish,i think.Then after that bused to WhiteSand cause i want to return my book.And also to borrow a new one,yeah.But i realise the book i borrowed kindof konek,like seriously.I thought its interesting but hell no.I dont understand the book at all alright,haha.After like 40 mins i think,ja wanted to go,cause of boredom.Lol.Den roundround WhiteSand den decided to go back to TM.Then walkwalk again lastly went to Mac,talk things out.Catch up on things alilbit.Took pics,and oh ya! Still waiting for hudd to upload those pics.Hudd,please thanks =D,with ♥.Yeaa then around 7pm or 8pm went home.Had alot of fun,♥ing you girls.Took 293 since that naughtygirl,Jaja,want me to company her.Then i have to drop at 7Eleven,penat tau kene jalan ja.Suke aje eh dier eh.Haha.But nemind,segala untuk kamu.(Sengsiong,lol.)Wtf much.Hahaa.The next day,went training.And everything went well.Then today nothing much.Going Masjid Al-Huda with family today for the Calendar Melayu celebration thingy.
Hey mister,i miss you.You know that.In the moon light,your face,it glows.Like a thousand diamond i suppose.Im still hoping,no one knows.Miracle could happen.I think,ummmmm..
Heey,saw this at Firdanshah's favs.I cried sia,wasialala.Touching like hell uh.
"Sometimes people's feelings are so complicated they cant stop themselves,
even when they know they should." Eclipse..argh.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Tittle: I hate you,no one fools my daddy :'( Heyy.Currently pissed off,like reallyreally pissed off.So everything's getting worst,all thank to that lahabooowww.Just declare bankcrupt.Its easier i promise.You cant live with other people's money.Their sweats.Thats their life yknow.Especially when it come to ayah's money.We're not rich,we need to work to earn money.Unlike you,just sit in the office waiting to eat people's money. After the previous big thing that happen,still related to that M.F money-eater boss.Things get worst,he said after ayah work for him,his company slowed down.I vvvking disagree."You dont blame my dad,look at your vvking old van.Anything could have happen to it before ayah even work for you.Dont you think you have to buy a brand new van so you wont trouble your staffs.And oh ya,i forgot you dont have enough money to buy 'em and thats why you're waiting for ayah's money.No hell no,my dad's not as stupid as you think.Never that close.He works for you heart-out.Now that money he's."He just wants a piece of us uh! I mean i cant bare looking at ayah suffer each day thinking how he would pay all the bills any everthing.I just cant.You dont know when you're not the one facing it.When i open my eye,i can see that 'something' in ayah that just shows up.He cant lie to us,he cant pretend to not-be-stessup when he is.I just know him.It hurts,it hurts even more to know that your daddy's in a tough road and you just cant do anything but just to wait and see what happen next.Its just that daughter-daddy's feeling.Each night when im in bed,i pray that ayah'll stand strong.And i wish maybe if i would be ayah and im the one to face all the problem just to raise us up,that'll be great.He's getting old,i dont want anything to happen to him.Today he(M.F Money-Eater boss) send a letter of lawyer or whatever.Saying that he double-d the charge to $4000+.Is that crazy or what,we're not vvvking rich.But ayah says its alright we dont need to be scared of him,who is he.And nothing happen when we're not guilty.As if like he wants this case to be up in court.Tapi ibu said,"Takpe,kiter sabar aje.Tengok,Mak Pungot sume cakap kiterla amoung keluarga ibu yang happy-go-lucky.Yang slalu happyhappy.Kakak ader motor,abang pon ader.Dan ader family car jugak.Kiter slame ni tak pernah alami kesusahan.Jadi ni satu cabaran untuk keluarga kiter.Dier(god) nak kiter rase kesusahan.Ni siket je tau,so kiter kene solat mohon dengan dier untuk kurangkan cabarancabaran tu sume.Ni da masenye untuk kiter ingatkan dier." What ibu said its true,our family,we never know whats its like to be in a problem.I mean a major one uh.Everynight when i pray to god,i always cry thinking of ayah.Its been long since i show my love for you,but truly deep down there you're always be my superhero."Ya tau orang banyak bohong,buat salah kat ayah.Ya tak jadi anak yang ayah idamidamkan and ya harap ayah boleh maafkan ya."I ♥ you alot ayah.Ayah stay strong.We just got to know that this company's black-listed.Like they cheated alot of staff already before ayah.All of it's a court case.Now he's hitting it again.Tryna fool us,you cant.I sugesst you close down you company,really.
God its time for a miracle,please :'(
Sunday, December 13, 2009
He's kindof retarded,no doubt.But he's cute.And for a 4 year old to play that good(excluding his singing),he's awesomzxt.
Heey.Today is vvking boring.My hair's growing longer each day(♥).And my fringe growing longer each day too(no♥).So i decide to cut my fringe tomorro.Ive ask aliyah to company me,hehe.And still trying to contact iqyn,if she's free tomorro.If you're reading this right now mot,please gimme a call.K so today's dead.Woke up at 11am,i think.And found out that everyone's out already.So its only my sis and me who's still at home.1/2 hr later,sis went out.Like ive predict,i'll be all alone at home.So straight switch on comp and online.First one to chat with me,is hudd.Haha,so still chating with her while youtubing.Saw couple of great singers and dancers.Syafe's one of them and Nabs too.Umm ya,still doing nothing.Ibu said we're going JB next week.Yeah! Really looking forward to it.I wanna shop,last time i recall shopping is when the last JB Trip with Cik Midah.Im out of clothes i tell you.Days go fast please.Today's sunday,and tomorro's monday.And that means its time to wake up early for trainings.Fancy Drills still on.Its awful if i drop the baton.Please god,save me.Its already 5.30pm yet im still in my pyjams.And obviously i havent shower yet.And hey! Say what! Finishing the book soon,real soon^^.It is a great book,should go borrow it someday,'Picture Perfect'.People's have been asking me whats with pm and who's firdanshah.Firdan is my longlost friend.He used to be in my madrasah class and that time i went to bugis den suddenly someone bumped into me and i got mad and stared at him.But then end up he said sorry and say he knows me.Wtf,i dont know him until he reminded me of who he is.That once he used to be my partner in madrasah.Dont blame me,you change alot Firdan.Its a small world after all huh.And we're friends,mind you.And thats it.Currently listening to Thaqif.Deep down there,i know im not quite over it yet."Isnt it ironic,We ignore who adores us, Adores who ignores us,Love who hurts us and Hurt who loves us." Gotta go,im out.
Friday, December 11, 2009
Alohaa.After that day,i havent been out yet.I stayed at home all the way.I just dont wanna go out.Then the next day or the next day,went out with family the whole day.Went to Airport take train,amazing right.Ibu wont ever want to take train since ibu say whats the car for.After that trained to Geylang.Ate Arnold then walkwalk.Den trained to WhiteSand since Emy wanna go his friend's chalet[wtf much].Then wanted to go E!hub but sis wanna go T1.So we go T1.Walkwalk and walk.Den went home.Family took bus.But i insisted on following Bro,ride his bike.I vvking lazy already so i ask abg if i could follow him.Ans so i did.Before heading to his parklot.Abg went to Secret Recipe,to find a part time job.Then saw Senior NCO Tina.What a small world huh.She told me that there's training tomorro[the next day].For selected cadets only.If it wasnt her,i dont have a clue that Np have training.So after that ride abg's scrambler.[idk how the hell to spell it,so shh].Home Sweet Home.Dig up everything,to find my trackpants and P.E shirt.Then the next day i found out that we're doing Fancy Drills.Awesomxst.I love Fancy Drills.Np starts at 9am.And ended at around 1pm since the malay boys had to go for prayers.Its my first time excirsing,k not really but at home i dont really push up or anything.When Senior NCO tell us to pump,i did,we did.But when everythings over,when im at home.My body ache-ing sia,walao so long never push up,run and everything.Now my body's still ache-ing,damnit.And now currently doing nothing,just blogging and listening to Mariah Carey.And oh during the 'My Family Outing' thingy,we went to White Sand right.And i just know that there's a HUGEHUGE library there.So i went in with ibu and everyone and borrowed a book.I miss reading,really.So currently caught up with this one book,'Picture Perfect'.Bout a family and a teenager as the daughter and busy mom and not caring father and sacrifies and finding love and yeaa.I think its a good book. Currently reading it now,and read-ed half of the book already^^ Wee.Missing Musq,Nazatul,Qyn,Als,Yanti,Farah,Jueta,Sharliza.And hudd,Ja,Anni,Fyqq.And Farhan.And Firdanshah,im friendly im not action la.What only firdan :D"Im rough,impatient,and a little insecure.I make mistakes,i am out of control,and at times hard to handle,but if you cant handle me at my worst,then you sure as hell dont deserve me at my best." Me;
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
|My superhero|
Heey.Things get alilbit rough lately.I just got to know that my dad havent recieve his pay when every other staff did.Dad's been working hard just to support our family.He's a school bas driver after 'penchen' being a police man.I can see that he's glad that he've been aceepted to be a bas driver since he really wanna bring home the van.He's been working day and night just to make sure we eat well,dress well,go to school and everything.It just break my heart even more to see him struggle to pay up all the bills,school fees everything else by working at this {insertcompany} that end up not paying him a cent after a month working with em' :'(Which is over a $1000,get that in mind. Because of some reason,which is not dad's fault.They're tryna make it look like its dad's. Now dad's currently reporting to the MOM [ Ministry Of Manpower ] about this company.We're not rich,people may say 'hey its just a thousand'.But for dad,he can pay anything and everything with it.I can see that he's in alot of pressure right now.Mom says "See tengok ayah,hati mulia,baik,tak dengki,tak sombong.Orang boleh sampai hati buat ayah cam ni.Skarang korang pon kenelah faham.Tk boleh kluar often sangat,mintak duit gitugitu aje.Ayah siangmalampagipetang kluar cari duit untuk korang tau."When i think back i realise maybe ibu is right.Working hard to feed your fussy children, to pay up bill,to be a great dad ,to discipline your naughty children and to do everything else.Isnt a easy work.Before everything i had a plan with my girls to go out today,after hearing that,and seeing dad's suffer i just dont want to hurt or trouble him anymore.So i decided to not go out today,im sorry girls.I would like to meet up with ya'll but it's just not the right time.I know i made a sudden change and im sorry.I hope you understand my situation.I just break down seeing dad like this.When you look at dad's face,you can easily tell that he's stress.Before this,ayah always laugh and smile all the way but when this happen you can,like that[snap],tell that he's depressed.Its hard to see your dad,stand right up to his rights and to see him suffer just to feed you,isnt it.Now i realise that dad's had been my superhero all this while.If its not because of you,i wont get what i want.Im sorry cause ive been quite a daughter all this while.And thanks for everything.
I ♥ you ayah.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Sunday, December 6, 2009
A friend is someone who understands your past,
believes in you future and accept you just the way you are.
I saw that in you mot.Happy Birthday Iqyn!
I dont wish to say this to you,
but whatever happens,i ♥ you semot.Hehe.
You've always been a great buddy:D
plus
I hope the watch works,hehe.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
I'll update properly soon alright.Check this out,they're awesomxz.
And one more thing,"Everyone wants to be happy.Nobody wants to be in pain.But you cant have a rainbow without any rain."
