Heyy,had our last day of post exam activs.Went east coast,beach cleaning -.- We pick up leave,alot of it.Hahaa,you cant find any rubbish in our big trash bag.No really.After school went iqyn's to watch ' Jangan Tegor ' .Currently still at iqyn's.The show fucking scary la.Cannot take it man.Tired of hugging the pillow.It end already.Now tired,wanna sleep.Arrrrgggh!I am hungry,steel (Freaking Ris Low,bodo)Tomorro taking our report book,*scream like hell*.Okeey bored,bye.Im out.
Had our post exam activs.Went around S'pore yesterday,went around explanade.Some chinese musuem at bukit batok,i think.And alot more place.It was fun,hell yeah.Today went around Tampines.Old Tampines,like changi.I think?Hahaa.We were last to go just now.Stupid laa,aiyoyo.Currently bored slash hungry slash more bored slash wanna talk otp with you.I am smiling widely,just random.Hahaa.Im so hungry,again : ( See the photo up there,yea up there.Your gum wont be dry if you get to know them better uh (tak kering gusi).Hahaa,what fuck.I suck in translating uh kan. They rock like hell laa.They dont care what people say about them really,haha.They happening to the maximaxi uh.Lol.I think we're getting closer each day.I dont know if its a bad thing or the opposite.Thinkingg..Tomorro,beach cleaning.Yawwn.Gotta read my book,perfect world.Maybe it isnt afterall.Im out.
Monday, October 26, 2009
OhMyy,thanks you guys.I never expect anything like this.It means alot to me.
Ja,its alright never too late dear.Its the thought that counts.
Sa Ra,i miss you guys la.
Fyqq,im not arrogant now eh :D
Hudd,i love you.
Syah,aku rindu kaunye karotness uh.
I love you guys,you guy's the best.
Not like any other day of the year.Today is hudd's big day.
If you dont know who's huda,letme share with you guys alright.
Hudd is a great friend,you can put your trust on.
Hudd's pretty inside out.
She listens to your sorrow and give you that encouragement to move on.
She dont judge people by thier looks,talent,capability or anything.
She's like angel on earth.
She's a friend that you will never want to lose.
We fight like kids but at the end of the day we know that we still have each other.
She got a million ways to make me laugh.
You always make me realise that there's more to live.
May all your wishes come true,Happy 13th Birthday Hudd.
I love you.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
He's hot and he can really sing ya'll,Justin Bieber.
I got nothing to blog really.Will update properly soon aite.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Today's a friday,and hell yeah i love friday.
You talk like as if you own the world,bodo.Go get a life cause i know you dont have one and now you're trying to destroy mine.Its been a hard time for me all this while,now you should be the one suffering.I dont need no sympathy.You go fuck off and stop bothering me.Im over and done with you.You got nothing to prove me wrong,nothing at all.Cause i know you're at fault and you're just making this up to cover what you did wrong.And to put all the blame on me.Nobody's perfect,everyone made mistake but to put their blame on others.Thats when you deserve to be in hell.You can never try to play me around cause im not here to be your toy.Go get some other toy and destroy it.No point talking bout you when you still wont realise how you gave love a bad name.I wont forget you,but in a way you wont want anyone to remember you.I wont forget you for being one jerk that shouldnt have live in earth.FuckShit Asshole.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Ouch!
Today is one boring day.Pass my lit,hell yeah.Pass my English Paper 2.Im happy,i am so random.Currently doing nothing much,chatting with kirby.Sharing fucking hilarious vids.Went makan after school with semot and als.And went home,since im broke.Iqyn went home too.Aliyah went home with naq,i think.I got nothing to say,i bet you guys knew it from the above uh,right.Hahaa.Gotta rest.Im out.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Yesterday i was super fucked up with myself and i wrote out everything and save it.But when i wanna publish it,it disappear.Asshole.Today is a big day,students get their exam marks.And i did,and i just cant believe it.Even when i try freaking foookingly hard i just cant make it.I try my super hard in Math Papaer 2 but i fail by 4 marks or more.And my overall is 46,how great is that man.Isnt it superb !?,not.And i hope my CA/TA can help push the marks further eh.Amin.For one moment,i think iqyn is that one small girl who react retardedly,no doubt.But for the next sec,i thank that retardedly acted girl who gave me courage in everything i do.In class just now,when Miss Ravee gave out the math papers.She didnt stop telling me that i will pass when me myself know that i cant make it.And when Miss Ravee read out everyone's mark including mine.She know i was sad,and she comfort me.What a good friend i own,right. [ Claaaaaaaaps :D ] So,pass my malay.Geog fail by 1-1/2 marks man.Arrrrrgggh,fugggguuuk!When there's chance for me to pass,i always fail by just a few marks,ALWAYS.Sssssshhhhhiiiit.After school went LJS with the usuals.After that went afgan accompany yanti go salon.Lol.You got even hotter burning hair now,YantiYatimin :D Went Nazatul's hommie after it.And went back,home sweet home.And oh! Sorry fyqq,i seriously didnt hear you shouting.Im not arrogant ! :( Hehee.If next time i saw you i tegor okeey,not to worry.Today kan,weird tau everyone saw me.But i didnt saw anyone of you guys.So Farhan,sorry uh.If i saw you next time,i'll pekik like hell uh.So wont give you that feeling that im ignoring you.Well,im not.How bout that,lol.Set eh.Tired like so tired,so tired like tired.Gotta rest.Im out.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Heeyy.Go movie with Amir,Dil,Win,Im,qyn + new friends on my birthday.Not actually celebrating it la,we go cause we got nothing to do after jalan raye.Not really jalan raye la kan,went one house and nowhere else.Kakak gave me beg,lawa.Thanks.Watched soragate,i think.Superb. Currently doing nothing,listening to karina pasian.Im not feeling well,fuccck.Yesterday evening caught flu,later that night had fever.I dont have energy to even stand up la,haisssh.Ibu wanna bring me to the doctor,i refuse to.Lazy to bath!Kak Fauziah's wedding is tomorro.Congrats kak.Still feeling bad,real bad.What to do,haisssh.Miss friends already :( Plan to go swim with hudd,jaja.But i dont think in this condition i can manage to go swim.What a waste.If only im fine like any other day.Jaja's sick too,pity her.Rest well okeey darling.Plan to go somewhere else,but the problem is,where.We got to meet up,we must.Its been like what few months since we last meet up.Need to catch up on things alil bit.Fb's still being damn hard to me,haissh.I dont know how to work it man,lol.How to upload or what shit what shit.Gonna get use to it uh eh.Watching HSM3 on youtube.Lol,gotta flashback alil bit.Miss the past.Im out.
And everytime i close my eye,i thank god that i've got you.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Thanks friends,for everything.You guys have been a great friend for me.
Ibu,thanks for the cake.Sedap!I want you to know even when i never really listen to you,i still love you like no other.I love you endlessly,ibu.Im sorry if i didnt turn out to be your ''goodgirl" that you want me to.But whatever happens you're still my ibu,my one and only ibu.Im sorry if ive cause you troubles,alot of troubles.Every second of my life,im thankful to have a mom,mom like you.You never gets tired to push me in anything i do.You never get tired to try to make me realise there's more to life.You make me wanna change to be a better friend/younger sister/student/daughter.You were there thru out my ups and downs.You mean everything to me.I will always keep you tight in me.Everyday i wake up in the morning i never stop wandering if you wont forgive me,ever.But when i think it thru i said ibu would never do that to me.She'll forgive me.Cause she love me as much as i love her.You're the crystal in my life.Thanks for evrything ibu.I love you.Ayah,peace.Love you too ayah.Kak,Abang and bemy.Thanks for everything,everything.Bemy!Tkmu gadogado dengan orang lagi,penat la ^^
Exams over,so over!No more librarys.Math paper 2,believe it or not its kindof doable.Hellyeah!Went bluesea after school,i didnt have cash so i kept quite.But iqyn offered me her $1.10.She told me to buy maggi,so sweet of you qyn.Thanks,i was kindof hungry also la just now.Den after that they dont know where to go,after like 10-15 mins they still dont know where to go.Silly la kan,hahaa.They naik the next bus without knowing where're they going,hahaa.I alighted at school'c busstop.Iqyn msged me,asking why did i go down.Hahaa,cute or what.I went down cause i dont have money to go anywhere la kecik.And they went somewhere else.And sorry eh,cant make it to session.I wanted -.- Haiish.Sleptuntil now,woke up cause im starving,lol.I gotta grap something man,must. Nowadays right,i listen to 'yanti's' type of music.Whats wrong with me?Ive started to listen to Mayday Parade,Secondhand Serenade and so on?Maybe because theres 100 and 1 meanings behind those lyrics,or maybe not.Not fucking hardcore or metal shit la kan,but i just change my kindof music.I still do listen to R&B and stuff :D I gotta keep something to eat,im out.
I let you walk all over me,cause someday maybe someone
will love me like i need.
Maybe-.-
Monday, October 12, 2009
Hooooooo.Had geog paper just now,fuewww i think i manage it :D Piece of a sandwich ya'll.Hahahaa,what fuck only.Tomorro having science,and that sucks.To the veryvery extreme.Gotta study,and i am going to.ChaloChalo,im out.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Remember this Farhan.HeyHeyhey,im damn bored la.Everyone's still asleep,fat pig.Tomorro's having phy or geog paper.I suck in it,so suck.Aliyah wanted to study together,me too.But qyn cant go cause she have to follow her parent go raye-ing.Fuggggin shit! I hate geog as much as i hate phy.What to do (!!!!!) So today plus chop,wont be studying.Letme check with hudd and jaja,maybe they're free.Hope so eh,i seriously gotta study if not i dont really know where're im heading for next year -.- Arrrgggh.fuuuck hudd's out with her friends.Jaja,hmm no idea.Soulmates is god's secrect,even if you say you'll die for me doesnt mean god allow you to love me.Kak Dira's words.WOOOOO,iqyn beg her parents and we will be studying at iqyn's.Gotta bath now,im out.
Friday, October 9, 2009
They make you cry,tears of joy.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Have you ever loved someone so much,you'd give an arm for.
Soulmates god's secret.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Yesterday was fuck fun.Went home,change and straight to TM.With qyn,als,yanti,farah&naz. So today was boring.Not going out,not at all.Uncles&auntys coming.Its one long day.Going out for raye on monday with them,tkmu tk jadi man.Next day going raye with primary buds,still planning.Den the next day,gonna study.Must study,math is the freaking difficult subject la.How i wish i knew whats my marks gonna be.Wish me luck.And yes,Farhan said 'Try harder if you know you're losing'.It never work Aan,even when its my 1000th try.How bout that,nak debut lagi ngan aku eh.Hahaa.Aan read this and sedar diri,you dont know everything.You dont :D Gagagagaah.Just finish my english and malay paper.It was hella fun,not.Its not as difficult like how i thought it will be,but im not confident of passing -.- God help me pass em,please.Amin.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
You can never feel how i felt,ever.Your words cut me like a knife.You can always wait for a wound to heel,but you can never erase the pain in your heart.Nothing can heel heartache.I try my very best to hold it all this while.But now,its too much.I felt the pain that no one,no one at all,will ever experience.People say you gotta believe in love if you want love to believe in you.People say love exist.But do they?You can forever and ever hurt someone but you can never ever know how much pain they suffer all this while.When you think there's someone that cares bout you,they just dont show it,do they.Im confused,people say they love you and thats why they act like this.But what if they make you feel unwanted,even worst.They make you feel like you're no one,no one and will never be one.You still gonna shut up and think they love you?I can take people beating me up like there's not tmr but i just cant take it when you start making me feel like i dont exist when im here right under your nostril.You make me think that you shoudnt have me as your child.You make me feel so different from the rest.Maybe kids dont really show how much parents mean to them,but they still do love you.Love you like no others.I swear that,cause im a child too.And kids wont go straight to you and say i love you,they wont.Neither will they say i hate you.I have been holding my tears all this while,you might never see me cry you wont.But that doesnt mean i never do get hurt.I may look happy like nothing happens cause im keeping it all inside.When other parents understand their child i always think of you,why cant you understand me like any other parents do to their young.Why cant you gave me your trust.Who am i to you?I seriously dont wanna bring this thingy up but it hurts.It hurts as much as you cut yourself with a knife.Sometimes i wander why am i still here.I got nothing in common with my other siblings.Im not honest,im not as clever as the rest,im rude,im always at fault,i always had something to be compared to.It all on me.Why?I tried everything,everything.Why cant you let me go out when you gave permission to abang.Why cant you trust me like how you trust abang?Why cant you praise my friends like how you did to abang's.Why cant you talk nicely to me like how you did to abang.Why cant you give me a little just a little bit of freedom when you gave abang full freedom?Why cant you gave me room to grow like how you gave abang.Why cant you encourage me in anything like how you always did to abang.Why cant you stop comparing me to anyone,anyone at all.I try to hide all the pain infront of you my friends my whoever but its too much.Even when i didnt tell my friends,they're the one who's gonna be asking me are you okey.Have you ever ask me that?Dont blame my friends if you're mad at me.They did nothing wrong instead they have been there for me whenever i need someone to talk to.I really feel uncomfortable talking to you when i have problems,i dont know why.You just make me feel like you wont care.I suck i suck :'( I'll try to hold all this inside,dont worry. I love you mom :'(
Thanks qyn,als,farah,musq,yanti,nazatul for being here for me all this while.
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